This idea was born during a powerful Satsang with Maharishikaa. Her words came at the exact time I needed them most. Thank you Maharishikaa.
For a week prior, I had been struggling. I couldn’t focus. My meditation felt impossible. My daily sadhana had slipped through my fingers. It felt like my entire system had been hijacked by the ego—the old thought patterns and mind loops had taken charge again. I felt voiceless. The more I tried to turn my attention inward, toward the antaratman within, the more I sank into an abyss of thoughts: intrusive memories, imagined futures, what-ifs, regrets, and spirals of fear. It was overwhelming.
I wanted to escape from myself.
In desperation, I turned to stories of Buddhist monks, I reread Siddhartha, and I began noticing a thread that runs through every seeker’s journey: the mind’s resistance to surrender. The illusion of control. Samsara. Suffering. Struggle. Thoughts that won’t let go. When you’re in that place—when the ego takes over and it seems like nothing is working—what do you do?
It’s not easy. That’s the first truth.
And yet, in those darkest moments, we need tools. Something to help us come back to the Now. Something to train the mind to soften. To build inner resilience. To stay aligned with the voice of our soul, our inner Christ Consciousness.
That’s when I heard Maharishikaa speak of the Sadhana Alarm Clock. A simple idea: start your Sadhana. Set an alarm every five minutes. When the sound rings, gently return to Presence. Be Here Now. In the beginning, do this as often as needed. Even every five minutes for a full hour. Let the sound remind you of who you truly are.
That idea resonated with me deeply. It became a medicine. A practice. A support system for when the ego gets loud, the mind takes over, and the inner space is clouded with chaos.
And so, this audio was born.
It is a gift for myself, and for anyone walking the path of awakening. For those with disturbed Kundalini. For those in the dark night of the ego. For those who are tired of giving power to old mind-body identity loops. For those crying out in the silence, asking what to do.
This is for you.
Let this simple practice help retrain your attention. Let the gentle bell, every five minutes, be your doorway back into Presence.
If you’re feeling overwhelmed, unworthy, or lost in the noise of thought—please know: you’re not alone. You are not your thoughts. You are the one who sees them.
And that witnessing presence is divine.
Yes, life may not have gone the way you planned. But maybe, just maybe, it has unfolded exactly as it needed to. Maybe it was preparation. Maybe you were being made ready to hold something greater.
We can give thanks for what we had. I know I do. God gave me a man who loved me. A marriage that cared for me. That was until yesterday. And now, God calls me toward a higher experience—to walk alone with my Creator and create something new. I am ready.
But even on this path, there are challenges. The ego may appear like a devil, it may scream, it may tempt, it may drown you in regrets and illusions. Don’t give it more power by entertaining it. Instead, turn toward the divine within. Ask for grace. Ask every day.
Many are awakening. And many are struggling with this transition. With the pull of the old self. But God has a divine plan. We are exactly where we need to be.
This moment is sacred.
Let the bell gently guide you back to yourself.
And may stillness stay with you long after the sound has faded.
Audio coming soon: The Ego Release Sadhana: One Hour of Now
| Tibetan Singing Bowl Gentle sound to return to the Now | Ashwagandha Ground your nervous system gently | Meditation Cushion Create sacred space for your Sadhana |
These days, I light a small candle, sit on my meditation cushion (find a natural one here), and simply listen. Every five minutes, the soft chime of a Tibetan singing bowl (like this one) reminds me to return—not just to silence, but to presence. It’s become my quiet ritual.
I’ve even started using a Bluetooth meditation speaker (this is a lovely one) to play the audio wherever I am, whether I’m seated or taking a mindful walk. It helps me stay anchored in the Now.
There are also gentle herbal allies I take on days when my system feels overloaded—Ashwagandha for grounding, Bacopa Monnieri for clarity. I use this organic blend and it really supports my nervous system, especially during intense Kundalini episodes.
If you’re new to all this, a great place to start is reading something timeless like Siddhartha by Hermann Hesse (get it here). Or listen to The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle on audiobook while resting. Sometimes, wisdom finds its way in without effort.